I’m never sure what to title a post that is not positive. 

My dad was hospitalized last week, he has a tumor on his bronchial tubes. They originally thought it was on his lungs and we were all freaking out. Luckily the scope showed it’s wasn’t that far down. He’ll have to do chemo/radiation sometime after the first of the year. They cannot remove it with surgery because of the size and location. The day after he was hospitalized my great-aunt was hospitalized. She has lung cancer that she was keeping quiet. It has now spread and she has a brain tumor and they’re predicting 6 months life expectancy. It was a really hard week last week. On top of Dec 27 being the anniversary of my step-dad’s death – cancer. This time of year has been more serious than fun the past few years and I’m really looking forward to have at least one December where nothing crazy happens. 

There is always next year, right? 

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My furry kids

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I do not have the laughing, crying, diaper-filling kind of kids, but these are definitely kids. Most days I can’t wait to get home and let them out of their crates. I hate that they can’t come to work with me and that they are caged for 9hrs each day. It does make our evening and weekend time awesome though. These two pups are so cuddly and playful. You can’t beat that for dogs. 

But, like human kids, they do get on our nerves. Chewy, our pug mix, is a ball of energy and is very protective of me. She doesn’t like anyone getting near me, knocking on the door, or anything that offends her. lol. Emmy on the other hand, is very laid back. She rarely barks and is always looking for someone to lay on or who will pet her stomach. She’s definitely a daddy’s girl, those two are attached. It is fair to say that we each have a dog that is more ours that the other person’s. 🙂

If we ever do rejoin the baby train, I wonder how our dogs will take to that. How would they act with a little person that needs a lot of love and energy? I like to think that they’d be sweet but the truth is, they’d be anxious because I’d have less time to cuddle and spoil them. Gone will be the days of long walks and playing with the kong for hours. 

What do you like best about your pets? 

Settling Down

The majority of people that I know are either “settled down” or are seeking to “settle down”. I have always been hesitant to settle down, though. Before I was married, I was terrified that it meant I’d be “settled”, all the fun sucked out of my life. Seriously, that huge commitment was terrifying for me. All I’ve ever wanted is more adventures, no strings attached and a life that is not stale.

I spent most of my 20’s moving around to different states, new apartments, traveling to places every chance that I had. That was important to me, to feel like I could go when I wanted to go. Luckily, my husband is just as excited about traveling as I am so I have not been homebound for the past few years. However, we are reaching the settled down point.

We have lived in Philadelphia for almost 3 years and we just re-signed our lease for our current apartment. Both of us have jobs that could be live-long careers if we chose them to be. We have essentially decided to call this city our home and sometimes that’s hard for me. The reality that I’ll never get to know another new city the way that I have so many others- Minneapolis, Flint, Asheville, Huntsville, Philly- is difficult at times. I’m terrified of being in a rut, of having no new experiences and feeling “old”.

As I age, I am passing by a lot of different timelines that I had for myself. I haven’t had the children that I had wanted by age 30. I  haven’t had any major purchases, I just got my first credit card last year – I’m frugal like that. We may never purchase a house in part because that is another sign of being settled down and my husband says it’s too much work (he was a homeowner previously). The only goals that I have accomplished include finishing my undergrad degree, finding a stable job related to my interests and finding someone to spend my life with (that one was HARD).

Given all these factors, perhaps settling down isn’t the scary thing that I fear it is. I am slowly making more friends in my local area and settling into my neighborhood and job and those are good things! I’m not traveling this road alone and I shouldn’t expect to be moving every time I turn around. Maybe I’m settled down and just in denial. 🙂

Apple pie cookies

Apple pie cookies

You’ll need:
1 small can of apple pie filling
1 package of 2 pie doughs
1 egg white
spices of your choosing

Cut circles for cookie bottoms out of one dough
Cut apple filling into smaller bits if needed, add spices if you desire
Put filling centered on each circle you cut out
Time to cut the lattice crust – cut your other dough into thin strips and weave together (or you can make circles and close your cookies completely)
Beat the egg white, brush on the tops of your cookies, sprinkle with sugar
Bake for 15-45 minutes- this depends on your dough and oven. Cookies should be golden brown