On a jet plane

My weekend in Tampa with my dad is over. It was hard, folks. Seeing your parent so weak and ill is very difficult. I held myself together until my aunt picked me up this morning. As soon as I was out of his house I was crying. I hurt for him and that we can’t do anything to help him. He is in such pain on a daily basis and barely gets out of bed to socialize. He kept apologizing for not being better company but he was as good as he could have been.

My stepmother has done a lot of the work for him. I have a 15yr old brother that lives there but he’s not very helpful. I also feel like she might be pushing my dad too much to get up and go even when he is feeling awful. She was lecturing him on getting out of bed to socialize even though we all knew he was having a very bad day  This was frustrating because I just wanted him to relax and rest as needed. She thinks he may be milking the pain excuse but I don’t think so. He has a lot going on inside his body right now. Soon they have to go in and stretch his esophagus again because it’s shrinking due to the radiation treatment he had. This means difficulty eating and he is losing weight again. Such a small guy now and that’s not his nature.
In good news I was able to get a different seat on the plane so that I hopefully won’t be crowded. On the way to Tampa I had a entire row to myself. This flight I’m hoping for someone not switching into the middle seat of my row so that it’s just two of us with a chair between. Big hips do not like small plane seats.

Where have I been

Well, nowhere but extremely busy with life. This is how fall goes, lots of business.
We are still exercising and it gets easier as we continue, though getting up at 5:45am gets worse, lol. It’s so early considering we don’t start work until 9am. Icky.
We went tubing a week ago. It was my first time and we had a blast! There were 12ppl in our group and it was a perfect size for wandering around in the Delaware River. I’d do that again.

I’m going to Florida on Thursday. I’m spending a few days with my dad. He is still recovering from lung removal and not leaving home besides going to Dr appointments. He is still in a lot of pain and will be for a while. He has a heart specialist now because his heart beat is irregular. They think it’ll adjust eventually but they’re keeping an eye on him just in case.
I’m going to Seattle in November for a conference with other leaders for this year of service program that I’m in charge of at church. I’ve never been to the west and am taking a few extra days to explore. Any suggestions, must see places? I’m addicted to planning so I’m already taking notes and mapping public transportation.

So many babies growing in this community, super happy for everyone who’s coming out of the baby closet with announcements and gender reveals!

Back on track isn’t pain-free

Part of my four month goal is to get in better shape between now and January. I’m really awful about going to the gym even though it’s about 5 seconds from my apartment. It just feels like a weird foreign place. So, I’ve decided to take up home exercise with YouTube videos. I found a channel that does 5-20 minute videos. Each one focuses on a different part of your body and seems a lot less boring than this Gillian Michaels DVD I attempted last year.

Yesterday C and I did 2 videos and were like “wow, that was a hell of a work out!” Today we are like “what the hell were we thinking our bodies went through the ringer!” I am no small woman. Doing crunches is a nightmare, my body does NOT bend that way and the chances of it doing that without losing 50lbs is very slim. My abdominal area as sore, my knees are sore, and my hips are not happy! I imagine if I keep at it, I will eventually not feel like I’m dying every time I laugh or walk, right? We have decided to do this routine every other day until our body doesn’t ache so much and then we will step up to every day.

We already eat healthy but are making a real effort to avoid sugar. The desserts are our downfall. If we work out regularly and leave out the sweets we will be on the right track. I know people say “No Pain, No Gain,” but I really hope that we don’t end up breaking ourselves into little pieces. haha.