Lost blog friend

I’ve been following Rebecca at Fosterhood blog longer than she’s had her daughter’s (~4yrs). I have diligently read her posts daily and, now that she has deactivated it, my heart hurts. We haven’t met or communicated privately but I cheer on her family and am watch the struggles in NYC  foster system that she shares. She’s a great writer and a good “imaginary friend” in my mind. Do you have blog people that you follow who you are attached to even though you have zero personal interaction? 

I hope she comes back some day and finds her faithful followers again. Meanwhile I’ll be thinking happy thoughts for her, the girls, and the other families stuck in the cog of foster care. 

Dog days and weird dreams

Does anyone else dress their dogs up in holiday costumes? These pups were so cute but not particularly amused at our style choices.

I love them so much though!

Chewy is our underbite wonder dog!

Emmy is Santa’s unwilling elf.

I’ve been sick and medications lead to the weirdest dreams about old jobs, strange adventures, and life goals.

One thing we put back on the table after 2 years is the possibility of parenthood. We’ll discuss more in the summer after my unit hires an additional employee so that I don’t feel so guilty about my personal life choices. More details eventually! 

Holiday baking

I love to bake, all year around! But winter time is when all my skills come out. This weekend we baked all the cookies to send to my parents, siblings, inlaws, and C’s best friend. It was exhausting but so much fun. 

We made two types of cookies that were my mother in laws favorites and that got us to talking about her. We still mention her almost daily and it’s getting less weird. 7 months went by fast, I feel like she just died. Anyway, her recipes came out delicious! The Christmas lace cookies were my favorite. We were so glad to be able to share them with others. 

Other cookies were some I make every year and a new cookie that was gingerbread with a lemon icing. Delicious! The cookies were a huge hit with our co-workers too. Office people like to eat. 

My cookies were: gingerbread with lemon icing, rugelach, cinnamon crisps, chocolate coffee crinkle, lemon raisin, and Christmas lace. I can post recipes if anyone is interested!

Feeling the burn

The tattoo burn that is!

Today I acquired my first new tattoo on ten years! It’s a bracelet of green ribbon. The Picasso peace dove is on my outer wrist and the resist/solidarity fist is on my inner wrist. It came out just as I’d hoped and it already feels like part of me. 

I feel so much desire to continue advocacy for human rights and equality, and to work towards peaceful resolutions. This tattoo is my strong/protesty self and my let’s be rational or pray about it self. 

I feel that most often peace/calm and community solidarity ate at odds but don’t have to be. Alternately, we must stand up for the injustices around us or we’ll never have peace…of mind…or anything else.